here's your sign

i've been taking sign language for basically two years now.
even though i complain about going to my ASL class, the truth is: i love learning the language. and i don't even mind having to learn all the history, because its interesting.

every once in a while, i get the chance to use my skill. and i'm not going to lie, it makes me so happy, and it makes me feel like a pro (even if i stumble over what i'm trying to say, and make mistakes).

i like the language a lot because it's so simple.

one sign can mean so many things. and to make a phrase mean more, you add more emphasis. make the movement more drastic.

i like the language because its not complicated.

english is complicated. there are too may elusive words, that get in the way of explanation.
words can get so complicated and twisted. and you can take one word to mean another, and then everything is messed up.

but with sign language,

everything is so clear and 

simple

and easy.

not to brag, but i'm pretty good at it too. haha. 

later kids,

sam

understanding people.

fourth term is almost over, and has left me feeling very inadequate. i'm barely passing all my classes, and i've ALMOST got all my attendance schools done, and i work all the time, etc. but 75% of my inadequacy come from the fact that i have actually gotten worse at analyzing things. 

i realized this when i was talking with one of my friends about a song. and she was all like "oh my gosh, it just is so good. and it has all these hidden meanings" and i was just like "...yeah. totally. i totally know what you're talking about..." when the truth is: i knew the song, i knew the lyrics by heart, but i hadn't actually taken the time to really understand the song, you know?

and so that got me thinking: where else in my life have i not been understanding things?

at the moment i'm not understanding* why i have to go to school, and boys, and why i can't just sleep all the time. 

*by "understanding", i mean: analyzing.

but mostly--PEOPLE.

how many times a day do i talk to people, who i KNOW, but don't UNDERSTAND. i've lost my ability to analyze a person, and see beyond what they tell me. i've had a hard time reading between the lines, so to say. it is truly frustrating, and it worries me. 

hopefully i can get back into my own way of analyzing with some practice.

#practicemakesperfect

later kids, 

sam

you knew it was coming, a post about boys.

now, before you go getting your hopes up thinking you're going to hear all about my juicy love life, let me assure you that my interactions with humans of the opposite sex are very awkward on my part, on account of i don't know how to function around cute boys.

lemme tell you, its a real inconvenience.

i have a hard time functioning most of the time, but when it comes to boys...i'm hopeless. forreals though.

exhibit A: boy flirts/cuddles with me. boy i like guesses that i like him. i tell him he is right. he tells me he likes me too. one month later we still don't talk about what happened. in fact, we dont' really talk at all.

exhibit B: i basically just stare at the boy i have chemistry with, (literally though, we are in the same chem class. (yeah, i know, i'm really punny.)) all the time. he is seriously one of the most attractive people i have ever seen in my life. *sighs* and he actually knows i exist. (<---thats a pretty big step for me, guys.) and every time i see him, literally i melt like butter on hot toast.

everyone tells me that all those boys don't know what their missing. 

so in an effort to raise my self esteem, 

and let all boys know just what their missing...

REASONS YOU SHOULD DATE ME:

1.) i'm pretty hilarious, if i do say so myself.

2.) i promise i can look cute if i really want to.

3.) i love to cuddle.

4.) i like to do cheap/free things.

5.) i don't enjoy participating-in/watching PDAs.

(translation: i won't make out with you in public.)

6.) i'll probably force you to go on a mission.

7.) i will watch endless movies with you. 

(reference #3)

8.) i might make you cookies.

9.) i love to dance.

10.) i have zero hand-eye-coordination.

(translation: you can be all manly and teach me how to 

play pool, and swing a baseball bat.

there are endless romantic scenarios there.)

11.) i'll probably let you hold my awkward hands.

okay, okay. i suppose i can stop there, because you all know why i'm so hilariously cool. (not to mention i stopped running out of ideas at #4.) 

ANYWAYS.

#boysgetatme

thats all kids,

sam