understanding people.

fourth term is almost over, and has left me feeling very inadequate. i'm barely passing all my classes, and i've ALMOST got all my attendance schools done, and i work all the time, etc. but 75% of my inadequacy come from the fact that i have actually gotten worse at analyzing things. 

i realized this when i was talking with one of my friends about a song. and she was all like "oh my gosh, it just is so good. and it has all these hidden meanings" and i was just like "...yeah. totally. i totally know what you're talking about..." when the truth is: i knew the song, i knew the lyrics by heart, but i hadn't actually taken the time to really understand the song, you know?

and so that got me thinking: where else in my life have i not been understanding things?

at the moment i'm not understanding* why i have to go to school, and boys, and why i can't just sleep all the time. 

*by "understanding", i mean: analyzing.

but mostly--PEOPLE.

how many times a day do i talk to people, who i KNOW, but don't UNDERSTAND. i've lost my ability to analyze a person, and see beyond what they tell me. i've had a hard time reading between the lines, so to say. it is truly frustrating, and it worries me. 

hopefully i can get back into my own way of analyzing with some practice.

#practicemakesperfect

later kids, 

sam